a daughter's gratitude

this is my ambitious attempt at writing about honoring the woman whose love and compassion is untiring and limitless. i know it's bad of me to even wait for this special day to put in writing at how wonderful a mom she is. nevertheless, this entry is to make this manifestation, as we pay tribute to the most special woman in our lives this mothers' day.

raising a middle-class family is quite a challenge. where income is solely derived from the compensation papa and mama get from their employers, you can imagine how it was such a task for them to provide the basic needs of the family, while at the same time not having to let the children worry about it. somehow, it was a comfortable life growing up-- new dresses every christmas, school bags and supplies were replinished every start of the school year, having pf tender juicy hotdogs on the breakfast table, and even sending us to reputable universities for college. looking back, i wonder how could papa and mama afforded these despite the meager salary they used to earn? as they say, behind every great man is a woman... i say, behind every happy home is a mother who works it all out for the family. so that answers!

she is 56. with God's grace, still very healthy, warm, does not tire and still has that same welcoming smile. i often wonder where she gets that unlimited energy she obviously have. up to now, she is everywhere at home, you cannot catch her take a seat longer than 2 mins, excpet when she eats. while she has a 7am-5pm work on weekdays, she still cleans the house once she arrives from the office then gets herself busy preparing for dinner (read: no househelper). at 8pm, papa and mama leaves home to go to the city for lolo-lola visitation to the lovely apo. talk about juggling career and family, and all things in between. i have not even mentioned how her strength of character was so admirable when his boys took a wrong turn at one point of their lives and how she has has guided them all back to the path. truly, a mother's love never fails and never gives up, even when everyone else has.

mama, i thank the Lord each time for giving me the best mom i can ever have. i want you to know that i appreciate every little thing you do for the family. though at times i may have nagged you or pick at the trivial things you do, know that i feel sorry everytime i do that to you. for the many times papa and i tease you, know that they are our ways of endearment to you. hahaha and now that i have become a mother to sofia, my admiration and respect to you soared even higher. it takes a lot in me to have and raise her, how much more with you that you had to tend to us four. i can only wish that i become even just half of what you are. mama, i love you. i know you are happy now because of what your children have become. you and papa are starting to reap the fruits of your labor. indeed, your children become the best testament of how well you have strived for us. thanks to you and papa for all the sacrifices and enduring through it all.

you become the best mother because of me, and i because of sofia.

P.S. i know you can read this ma because obviously you have discovered this blog. ohhhh that mother's instinct! 

my day today

i just want to make this entry to document what happened to me this day. 

this morning i went to my OB Gyne for my scheduled out-patient procedure. this has been long been delayed since i found out about this condition when i had the annual check up with her last january. there were a number of reasons for the delay. but more than anything, the hesitation and fear in me were overwhelming. then courage finally came yesterday, i called the secretary to set an appointment. this, after days of internet readings and giving all my thoughts about it.

and today came. soon as reached the clinic, i sat down and talked to the secretary what my thoughts are and i told her how anxious i am of what is going to happen. she however assured me that there is not much to worry. i closed my eyes and prayed to God for Him to guide the doctor and strengthen me the entire procedure. that moment when everything horrible you read on the internet floods your mind, plus the unsettling feeling right inside you, yet you choose to proceed with it because you know the One above is even more powerful -- you call it faith.

the procedure itself, less all the preps and post recovery, only lasted for about 10 mins. it was not what i imagined it would be or how other accounts on the internet described it. yes, it was manageable. but the most difficult part came an hour after it, when i was home already and everything settled in. it was the most excruciating pain ive had (well, next to labor). the cramping was so severe, it's like having dysmenorrhea to the power of 90. 

hopefully, everything will be fine with me and my body after that. God heals, and nothing can be said  truer than that, and i am claiming it. will visit my doctor 2 weeks from today for the follow up check up. 

good night! :)

steak night

been wanting to try steak since it came to my consciousness. i was even bugging my husband that we try it in one of our date nights, but we never did. primarily because this meal usually comes with a hefty price. (if you know us too well, think kuripot and we are on top of your mind. hekhek) grateful for my dear friend maricel, and i finally got to try it. that was really a moment for me, obviously i am making this blog entry about it. hehehe the meal came with a wine to pair, plus we had it for freeeeee! thanks to hotel tavern and the privilege it extends to its general manager, you certainly made me and my tummy very happy.

this was our last official date before their family's departure for canada. our final hirit before we forego the free meals at the melange resto, so we thought that the best way to spend it was through a plate of medium-rare steak paired with red wine. the best... and only combo! and boy hotel tavern did not disappoint. i wont even attempt to describe it, il leave it to food bloggers, they are good at that. i am however sharing these photos with you, and il let them speak on my behalf. hihihi

    

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