my best guy friend's wedding

well, hello there. sorry for this extra late post... i promised to make a entry about my cebu vacation i had last july. one of the highlights of that trip was attending maude and vernz big day, so this one will be about that event.  the good times with my girlfriends, on the other hand, will be in the next installment.

i look forward attending to weddings. it is such a joy for me witnessing two people in love profess their promise and be tied as one. and attending to this event was even more special because it was my best guy friend's wedding to the girl he has long prayed for.

my friend looked dashing in a suit with a JLC-inspired bottoms. vernon, on the other hand, was lovely in her tube gown in mermaid tail. they were oh-so radiant on that day, love just sparkled in their eyes.

i love how their wedding had turned out. i appreciated that they were able to limit their number of guests to a hundred, thus everyone who attended there has a close relationship with the couple. i especially loved the reception venue, in Beverly View-- the decorations, the area of the place, the ambience being on a hill (overlooking the cebu city skyline at night) and the overall feel. just right for weddings as small as that of maude and vernon's.

add to that, i got to attend the event with the best girls in college. it was the first time for all of us to grace a wedding of a college kabarkada, other than mine.

i don't know how to correctly put a title for this entry. honestly, i sit here with the laptop just to unload everything in my mind. at this moment, this is the avenue where i can basically spill out my thoughts without having to listen to anyone. i just want to talk and talk and never care what happens after this post.

days gone by so fast since july 13. so fast that i think life has slipped off on me, without me ever indulging on it. a life completely different to what i was living before. think about time and not having to spend it with the right people and the right moments. i know, a tragedy!

i am at my lowest now, just so you know. i dont look happy, im down and i dont seem to have the appetite for things. i am busy working on at something, but it feels heavy for me. i do what is supposed to be accomplished now, but i dont think much of the plans ahead. i guess my move of pleasing others but myself has taken its toll on me. and it's scary.

if you know me really well, i am the type of person who invests in relationships and other things intangible. my husband has been home for a month now yet i dont think we have spent the quality of time due each other. sunday afternoons with the family and my parents used to be halo2x dine-in or beach outing, and now have turned out to be all work and all the thinking it entails. i have not prepared well-cooked meals at home since. even the time i spend with my little girl.

i know so little about life. experience wise, i only have a few. it has not treated me so badly, nor has it been so generous. but one thing i know, that you have to work on everything in order to lead you where you want to be and claim things you want to have. which leads me back to my thoughts, is money really important? how far should one go for money? how great should one sacrifice for it? and does it really satisfy? then what's next? these are questions in my mind right now.

for the record, we dont have an abundance of money. but i say we have enough for now. but for the future who knows? who knows what else do we need for the future? say in terms of the basic needs one should prepare, i would say we have invested a little to cover those needs. but for how long it can sustain us, surely not enough for the lifetime. but does this give you the reason to stop you from enjoying life? to have a break once in a while, go on vacation, to take a nap, free your thoughts, buy the little things that delights you or to even just make a blank stare?

i know everything about working hard, but i also do know about having a life and living it. clearly, this has not been the case accorded to me. and you say it's my choice to make? i dont know, really. sucks to be me? :D