all we ever do is say goodbye

my husband left this morning to perform the job he does best, seafaring. it's another 10 weeks or so of long distance love affair, regular emails and long distance calls just to listen to the voice of his dearest sofia. the very same reason i appreciate the separation (sometimes), it is the fondness of the heart and even more.

with his new rank now, edgar gets to have the opportunity to be with the family every 10 weeks. that as much as i welcome him every 10 weeks now, i also get to say goodbye every 2 and a half months.. actually even more, if you include the seminars and trainings he attends while on vacation. isn't that such a tear in the heart? you might think i have gotten used to the feeling, honestly no. in fact, it has become more and more difficult for me. as we add years to the relationship, the attachment grows even more, thus the anxiety every time. the loneliness is felt more and the thought of not having a partner in the household is just disheartening.

just as edgar and i, this world too confronts us with a lot of goodbyes. as the carpenters' song had it, the trouble with hello is goodbye. because yes, a farewell follows every greeting we do. with some happening just moments after, or others wait long and nurtures a good relationship before parting ways. and no, i am not saying here just the goodbyes in falling apart, but in whatever form, circumstance or quality. may it the friend you had in school, the high school sweetheart you first fell in love with, the girl right next to you that you talked with while you were on queue, or even the customer care specialist who entertained while you were ranting on a credit card complaint.

in this ever changing world, permanence can only be found in the dictionary. because somewhere, somehow, and sometime, it ends. but the beauty of it all, it may have had its goodbye, yet it has evolved and grown into something new, deeper, meaningful and beautiful. so be not afraid, brace yourself... because in this life, all we ever do is say goodbye.