all we ever do is say goodbye

my husband left this morning to perform the job he does best, seafaring. it's another 10 weeks or so of long distance love affair, regular emails and long distance calls just to listen to the voice of his dearest sofia. the very same reason i appreciate the separation (sometimes), it is the fondness of the heart and even more.

with his new rank now, edgar gets to have the opportunity to be with the family every 10 weeks. that as much as i welcome him every 10 weeks now, i also get to say goodbye every 2 and a half months.. actually even more, if you include the seminars and trainings he attends while on vacation. isn't that such a tear in the heart? you might think i have gotten used to the feeling, honestly no. in fact, it has become more and more difficult for me. as we add years to the relationship, the attachment grows even more, thus the anxiety every time. the loneliness is felt more and the thought of not having a partner in the household is just disheartening.

just as edgar and i, this world too confronts us with a lot of goodbyes. as the carpenters' song had it, the trouble with hello is goodbye. because yes, a farewell follows every greeting we do. with some happening just moments after, or others wait long and nurtures a good relationship before parting ways. and no, i am not saying here just the goodbyes in falling apart, but in whatever form, circumstance or quality. may it the friend you had in school, the high school sweetheart you first fell in love with, the girl right next to you that you talked with while you were on queue, or even the customer care specialist who entertained while you were ranting on a credit card complaint.

in this ever changing world, permanence can only be found in the dictionary. because somewhere, somehow, and sometime, it ends. but the beauty of it all, it may have had its goodbye, yet it has evolved and grown into something new, deeper, meaningful and beautiful. so be not afraid, brace yourself... because in this life, all we ever do is say goodbye.

pinteresting!

pinterest has become my go-to site when i think of design inspirations for our soon-to-be home. there are just too many pretty things there worthy to be repinned -- to hoard all those ideas. i have created separate boards for each of the different areas of a home.

for the meantime, i am sharing here with you my room pegs :)



this room looks so cozy for me, i can sleep here all day. plus, the illusion of having windows with those curtains is such a brilliant idea. a great way of having big windows in a room, where in fact you only have those walls behind.


the modern minimalist in me. and the warm hues. the subtlety of this room design shouts how subdued i want my room to be, no frills and touch ups. just the sanctuary you enjoy in the comfort of your own room.


i love how pretty the lilac color brings to a home.


ever since i checked in at then microtel mactan in cebu a few years back, i have envisioned my room to have windows such as this where you can sit there and make muni-muni. how do you call this nga? i forgot how they term this..hehe

for more of it, follow me on pinterest!



Note: what happened to blogger? is it just me or the format has really changed that i cannot regulate the size of my pictures as well as where i want them placed in my post. huhuhu

the healthy way

i am on a healthy diet now. more than being conscious of my figure and weight, it is really more on the fitness and wellness it does to my body. being a wife and a mother now, and that feeling of being needed and depended by someone else, i guess i have reached the point where i just want to be relly well and healthy all the time. and oh, did i mention that the effects of what i used to eat before has taken its toll on me? at one dinner i had with college friends, i suddenly felt nauseous and as if my entire universe just made a 180 turn right before me. that sure activated my panic button.

that being said, meals are now the complete opposite of what i used to have before. this means i have to learn to resist the lechon, nilagang paa ng baboy, crispy pata, and the how-do-you-say-no-to-this-extra-katakamtakam-aligue ng alimango. in short, i have to deprive myself of my all-time favorites. dannggg!!! just the mention of those above gives me that drool, yet again. sigh. to add to that, i have regulated myself to eat only a small serving of rice, and to choose fish and veggies as viands (preferrably not fried). i have no problem with the latter though since i enjoy fish and vegetables.

on my second week now, i would say i have satisfactorily followed eveything i have imposed on myself. more often, i have been steaming my fish or having it in tinola. vegetables are also a staple everyday. and pork? well i didnt have them on my menu for weeks now. a pat on the shoulder moment for someone who used to enjoy eating every bit of 'taba'. i have also learned to limit myself with my rice intake, no more round 2! hehe

also introducing my new indulgence, organic herbal tea. the operative word here is organic. figure! im having peppermint for now. the cool, soothing effect of its flavors leaves you calm, relaxed and rejuvenated. parang galing ka ng spa :) this tea also gives me the much needed answers for my digestive discomfort i have long been experiencing.

i dont know how long i can keep this, but i intend to stick to it. no change will ever take place unless we become the change we want to see. this is surely not an easy choice for me, but with my motivation in place, i will succeed on this. and im claiming it!