random ramblings

ohh well hello there blog, it's been a while and i must say i sort of forgot about you already. life took over bigtime, you know adulting and all, and i honestly i find it so difficult to cope. i dont know if i am lost, doesn't know how to ride along the tide, or completely transformed into a different person that i seem to not know me at all anymore, or maybe all of the above.

well, just few things to document what is going on with me now:

1. my daughter is now 6 years old. so much life around her, and i love every bit of her. she and her papa are so much tease of each other, our house becomes a chaos when they are both home. she know how to text already, she can very well express what she feels. so whenever she feels like it, she borrows a phone and texts away what she wants.

2. i have now expanded into operating a bakery. from being a bakery supply store which opened last december of 2016, we assumed our customer's space and operate the same. bakery started its business last sept of 2017. it's a whole new world, i would say. from trading to production. too much of a challenge!

3. there have been more irregularities i can feel with my body. chest pains frequent, there is something in my breast that hurts sometimes, and my head now aches harder and more frequently. specifically, the lower part at the back of my head hurts more badly now. i dont know what this is, really. 

4. i want baby number 2 already. it has been a longing for edgar and i for a new baby. we have not been so blessed with this. i hope it happens this year.

still a lot of things in my head. but that would do for now. that is only as much as i have allowed myself to share. i think i have grown to become superficial these days, what you see in me, is not really what you get. sigh. 

the greatest anxiety for my toddler

tonight, as with most nights i have, i feel helpless with what my toddler is going through. she was sitting on that toilet bowl for an hour but nothing came. last night, she was crying a lot because her tummy felt upset and when i let her sit on the bowl, she was on tears telling me that her anus hurts.

sofia has functional constipation ever since she was less than 3 months old. she does not have a regular bowel movement, four- five days. and whenever she does, it is always those hard, stone-y ones. i remember going to the pedia every 4 days just so she can poo with the help of her doctor, otherwise, there is so much discomfort for her. during the first checkup, she was given VCO just to act as lubricant for her intestines. it worked for a few days, then it was back to her normal frequency. then there were laxatives. same story, it worked but not for long. also, i didn't want to have those laxatives on her because it might hurt her colon all the more.

i had her stomach on x-ray but the doctor found nothing on her. i also brought her to a pediatric gastroenterologist already when she was under 5 months old but the specialist found her stomach and colon okay, although no test were done to her. it was not advisable at her age to do further exposure to radiation. the doctor said that you would actually know there's something wrong inside with just the feel or form of the stomach. she advised that maybe this will all change when she starts on her solids, and we can incorporate liquids and fiber-rich foods on her diet. or so we thought...

now, she is 3, and it is still the problem i face with sofia. i actually get so anxious about this whole situation, especially during the times when she cries because it hurts already. i have tried all home remedies i know of -- papaya everyday, fiber-rich foods, prune and apple juice, and drinking lots of water. i have also eliminated those fruits that can contribute to constipation, even changed her formula milk for a number of times already thinking it might be the culprit. but sigh, nothing is working.

what more do you think i missed? how do i help improve my daughter's bowel movement? share your tips please.. my sanity is slowly escaping me with this one. i know this is not something i can just brush off and allow to persist.

my dream philippine travel destinations

i am currently planning a vacation getaway with a friend happening on the first half of 2015, thus my mind is anywhere on the web for travel destinations. my friend and i have already agreed where we would go but my eyes still wander at awesome philippine provinces worth visiting. these have been on my list for quite sometime now, and im slowly ticking them off one by one. (note: arranged in chronological order. hihihi)

1. BATANES - undoubtedly the most picturesque province in the country, the beauty of the place is so captivating. very unspoiled, non-commercialized, and just its natural charm.

2. ILOCOS- a UNESCO Heritage Site, Calle Crisologo deserves to be in every juan's travel itinerary. the bangui windmills, pagudpud beaches and the kapurpurawan rock formation  --these are too beautiful not to see. home to the real thing bagnet, and this i should really try! apart from adventures and beautiful sights, i must say i travel for food.  

3. BENGUET - there is something about going north that excites me, the road trip maybe, the cold weather or the bounty of fresh flowers, fruits and vegetables. with strawberries specifically, i don't know if i'll love them (i have not eaten the real ones), but the sight of these fresh fruits feels so christmas-sy! :)

don't you just love the scenery and the raw beauty of the philippines? we have been blessed with so much. we should immerse to experience everything there is. so, what's your favorite philippine destination?

P.S. all photos on this post are merely lifted from the web. i take credit to the owners of these photographs.